Disclaimer:
What my title refers to is, I was in one of the 3 documentaries - all filmed roughly the same time, here in NYC - about junkies.
I was in one (UNION SQUARE THE MOVIE), My best friend is in one ('Sebastian', in Dope, Sick, Love), and someone I know well - Michael, is in this documentary.
While I'd never had the chance to see this documentary before, I'm just watching it now, and, right off the bat, I want to say: NOT ALL 'METHADONIANS' are as the people in this film appear.
It IS true, that there are people in methadone programs (MMTP for short) who DO take benzo's (benzodiazapenes) in order to get a heroin-like high from the methadone.
But, I NEVER did, and a lot of people I see at my program, and know, don't.
I also want to say that as this film (as well as mine; UNION SQUARE THE MOVIE (and Sebastian's film, Dope, Sick, Love) were all filmed over 6 years ago, all three of us have progressed quite a lot form these times.
In this film, Michael (who was shown with his dark glasses on, and nodding out at group) looks MUCH better.
He's put on weight, he's got a home, and, he's cleaned up his act.
I was happy to see that several other people who are on Methadone weren't 'ashamed' to hide it, and LOUDLY say not all methadonians are like these.
That's what really annoyed me, as well.
In ANY situation, there'll always be 'bad apples,' and as this film-maker thought - he could focus on these people (at that time) and make what seems to be a 'blanket-statement' about ALL methadonians, and Mr. Negroonte's belief that the Methadone makers sole purpose is to keep us hooked.
I can tell you that is WRONG.
ANother point, is that, a lot of people just starting on an MMTP are 'on-the-fence' - they've foot dangling in the 'junkie life,' and another dangling in the 'real' world
That period can last a person months, or years.
It all depends on when the person gets tired of the old ways, and WANTS a LIFE.
So, as far as Michael goes - he was in that stage when this was made.
But, he's not anymore, and, I'd bet that of the people in this film - or at methadone programs in general, a good percentage has passed onto living a higher quality of life.
Trying to get off methadone IS more difficult (the reason being that, unlike heroin, methadone acts MUCH longer. Therefore, it's harder to get it out of the body.It's NOT part of a 'nefarious' plot to make people addicted. WE did that to OURSELVES).
But, kicking methadone ISN'T the ONLY option.
Someone once told me - and I agree - that, as a diabetic needs dialysis lifelong, so, does a methadone client. IF (that's 'I-F') they choose.
As of now, that's what I choose.
Because, for me - it makes me feel secure - from myself.
I don't know yet (almost a decade on it) if I wouldn't run out and cop some dope.
But, I also know that on methadone, I've my family back, I've a terrific home, and life.
Same goes for Sebastian - and Steve in this film.
I wish that Mr. Negroponte would have taken this film, and 'sat' on it for several years.
Then, he could pick up the stories 5-or-so years later, and see what impact methadone had on these people's lives.
I don't know the other people in this film, but, if Mr. Negropnte had done that, he'd see a 180 degree difference in Michael.
Showing the POSITIVE would be great.